SUDDEN REALIZATION

It was supposed to start wonderfully. The sun has given up its best smile. I hummed as I trod the road I usually walk from the house to the point where I usually wait for the bus ride. I listened to some heartwarming tunes emanating from my music box. I smelled the fresh morning air as I watched and looked and peeked at the dew clinging carefully from the petals and the leaves and the blades of the grasses along the road. I see people, the usual faces that I meet every morning, with the smile on their faces and the "Good morning!" greetings. What a great way to start the week.

I took pictures there and then, trying to capture each moment to be permanently frozen and be etched, in immortality. I aid to myself that I was so lucky to catch these small incidences nature has provided for me. What a wonderful way to start the day! I sighed.

The previous week had been full though of some controversies, but as I go along with everyday existence, I did not mind them. There are some people that gad been hurt intermittently. I just kept silent because I know that in my mind, why should I care about these "small petty" matters. But it was not what I had expected things to turn this week. I was just surprised to know that the "small, petty" matters had gone worse, perhaps, even worst than what I expected them to be. And when I started to confront them one by one, I came to realized that not everyone can understand what my predicament is. Not everyone can dance to the song that I am singing. Not everyone can understand the words that I was speaking all along. All the while I thought that I can see them, and they can understand me for everything that I do. Not until the eye opener.

I asked for apologies, and I bet, they were accepted. By the constant nod, and by the silence that I received, I know they understood my predicament. It is a lesson learned for me. You cannot just please everybody.

Monday started the week wrong, and there are some misfortunes still that came, not only to me, for some colleagues as well. Issues that had been solved, and still some continues to linger. But still at the end of each day, the worries, the perplexes, the doubts, were changed into constant laughter being shared inside the shelter, alongside with the afternoon much of whatever that we can ever think of munching along the way. Time and fun never stops. At least, at the end of the day, we are happy. And the following day, we will be still.

It is a realization that life has to go on. That everything will come to its great end. And the new morn will just come and give its surprises. Life is like that. We will never know what happens next.

Carpe diem. Mr. Keating would always say to his student in Dead Poet's Society. And why not, what happens today happens with a purpose. Lessons are not just learned at school. They can be learned everywhere you go. With the people that you meet each day, with the song that you play on your i-pod, with the morning dew that clings carefully on the blades of the grasses, on the petals of the flowers, on the leaves of the gabi, just about anywhere. Capture the moment just like from the lens of the camera, and you will see the difference.

Problems can be created and recreated and be created and recreated over and over and over again. But, it will be only you who can probably solve them. With open mind and an open heart. they can be solved. But of course, the faith in the Supreme Being, will have to do with that. Moving on as they always say is the the hardest thing to do, but it can be done. Others would say it can't, well, for some obvious reasons.

A great week? Yes, it was such a great week.